i had a very interesting day yesterday. seriously. as in when i woke up, i went out for lunch with my brither at holland v and we met this inconsiderate couple who parked their car into the lot we were reversing into.so that was really irritating..den we went nydc for lunch. after that i came back and rested haha finally. and also did some work so pretty happy with the day

den i went to sleep for like 3plus hrs hehe, and when i woke up around 9 i went to meet gen for erm supper. haha so in the end we talked abt camp stuff and other stuff that made us think alot and unable to sleep at nite..so haha fruitful but worrying. den today went to church was good..cos we did some publicity and i as usual made a complete fool out of myself with the doo-doo-doos and ah-ah-ahs haha and the usual crap. haha so paiseh can.but it was quite fun and i enjoyed myself heh, so thank God for that..had cell after that and was so happy!

cos we talked abt dreams and what we wanted to be when we grew up so i wanted to be a musician and a missionary, very far off from the drama thingy im doing now haha. but yeah anyway we'll see how..God has HIS plans. oh..THE MEEPOK man is back! im so happy. its at the carpark there and we had lunch as a cell..really great! den renita made me walk all the way to buona vista mrt in my heels lor. ouch. den i missed my stop when i got off the bus. so sad. sigh.haha but owell.. it was interesting. ok cant think now..as usual, veh sleepy..gonna zzz..

so fun! haha fire.the stunts were amusingly difficult and interesting to watch. i actually got back at around 7 cos we finished early. so i had a three plus hour nap. going out soon. dunno where also. ghost ship i think hehe..owell..yeah am so tired dunoo whether can stay awake. anyway i was thinking that you know that show..erm the unbeatables? its unbelievably exaggerated and in a strange yet happy way it makes it sorta interesting to watch. makes sense?

well, all the cards fly around in space(!!), in a hot-air balloon, basically in all the stranges places u would expect it to fly around..and its all camera tricks! haha..digital and audio programming. it can be such an intricate job u know. gotta really hand it to them. den again, watching episode by episode and seeing any scene, i tell u.. it actually takes 3-4hours PER scene. means even if zoe tay and li nanxing are talking on the boat, it takes that long. and many many takes. i would know.. ive seen it drag on for goodness-knows-how-long!

but it all comes down to whatever u see on television and its rather satisfying for the crew, the actors and whoever was involved cos it was sheer hard work complete with sweat blood and tears. so if anyone thinks tv is thrash, which might be true due to the storyline..think again, its one hell lot of hard work.

oh dear i am so bad and lousy at html. was planning to link the links at the side of the blog, but oh see what happened. blahbleebloo. owell..its alright. give me some ready-made html. haha crap im so lazee, but oh-so-tired. went to watch singing in the rain last nite with evelyn and it was so..erm..dancey. lots of dances. but to me any musical is worth watching, cos a hell lot of effort prob went into it

ive just learnt how to truly appreciate music. as in ive always played music and have been interested to learn new instruments and what nots but i din really understand what music encompasses. ok see im talking rubbish. was reading this book yesterday at the esplanade library while waiting for eve, it was on 'pyschoanalysis is essential for every performer' well.. i could understand the gist of it but all the music terms she-sho-shuah all over the place. hmm. haha beks is sleepy and very lost. so please excuse her. haha

anyway the esplanade is so nice!!! i love the library. it houses such a large amount of resources and its like heaven for music and film enthusiasts. haha me included. of cos heaven takes on another meaning in my life. anyway im really crapping today. oh later going to meet rachel. yup. no not my sister. the other one. ok i think i sound positively insane. haha yup y'all have a blessed weekend ahead and a beautiful day today :)

::beks::
::muaks partner:: :p
::heroine:)::

sometimes it hurts to love
sometimes it hurts to think about why it happens
but i guess theres always a reason
and love somehow transcends any reasoning
it may hurt for just a little while
but when u realise just how much u love someone
it becomes a forgotten memory

im hapy today cos eve came to my house and we were supposed to study..me maths and her sats. but of cos it dint work cos in less den 10mins she had an urge to watch vcds. haha so we went down and watched miss congeniality. and den played piano and she had dinner at my house haha we ate so much. we're pigs. anyway im glad she was here today.haha

and gen makes me laugh. haha she really does. and she's so imaginative. haha dunno what ill do without her as a fren haha..thank God for all my frens, they mean so much.. okay so tired now..ginna sleep happy:)

i'm working today from home. yay hehe its really quite a change. as in not work work kinda of work but school work. i have to receive my assignments online and hand them up when school starts. got my first one. its some research paper on war. can die got so much to write haha.. yup. going to get my sketching schemes soon. have to register for my courses soon. haha beks, please get down to doing it. haha dont be lazee rosy posy.

anyway i woke up early today..early to me lah hehe so am happy. later eve is coming my house so quite happy. haha k nothing else to write, gonna do my work :)

there were some people who messaged me as to who i was and how to contact me hehe

well.. here's my email add, thesmallestkid@hotmail.com
yup feel free to drop me a mail or sth..hope my inbox has been cleared by now :)

::bekss::

hey yup realised my blog was kinda agressive. really wasnt intentional, dont know why i got so worked up for anyway. yup today my cell kids and us went to the clementi macs where we treated dem to brunch, it was so funny cos we saw someone who looked exactly like sk. haha and after that we went to play daytona haha..i kept getting banged off the road and renita just..screamed. haha it was a hilarious episode but truly enjoyable.

haha today worship was great, very moving and it left me pondering as to my purpose in coming to church..but u see..im really too tired to think now..will sleep on it and wonder. yup.was glad that eve managed to come..wearing the same nike shirt i have..the one gen and glo bought for me last yr for christmas hehe..cant believe it,its been almost a yr..time really flies..its almost christmas and i am feeling a little of the cheer already, what with the want to set up the christmas tree with snowbells and crystal stars and decorative lights. it really creates the atmosphere. and soon it'll be merry christmas!

on a sadder note, my cousins and their parents left for canade..migration. so sad wont see them as much. but hope they adjust well. yeah..well..really am sleepy. will sleep and think hehe :) gdnite!

gen makes blogging sound so sinful. like its what people use to put together a show or sth. makes it sound so direct.i don't exactly fall into just one category, but neither do i fall into the "hey my life's hip and happening or whatever"category. the reason why i started blogging was purely out of boredom. it became a sharing thing, on how my day was or how my day will be..or yes about what a bitch life is about.

but as much as the whole world is gonna perceive u from what they read..it becomes a very good tool in promoting religion and one's beliefs. do you know how much what u write can inspire ppl? how much u say can mean alot to just one person. it also acts as a mediator to things that just cannot be solved face to face. im not saying that whatever i have written has been all-inspiring..but there's gonna be one day where i hope this becomes a testimony of God's great wonders in my life, and that day is just gonna be beautiful, becos nothing brings more joy den honouring God

so whats this about putting up a facade? the paranoia of blogging? why does being real scare others? it scares me too sometimes becos we avail our vulnerability to others disposal and we leave ourselves wide open and exposed. thats when the real magic happens. and thats when God's love comes the most powerfully. some ppl blog just to sound interesting and funny but when u read yer first few blogs or previous entries, u re-live those times and the blog sorts of stores yer memories for u. some prefer to write it in someplace more personal..a diary or what..but some ppl want to share their idealistic somewhat personal thots with others. it aint wrong u know. becos a blog can be so real. it can help u understand ppl and know their true problems.

some people have just gotta stop blogging just for the sake of blogging. i was one of them, i just did it to fill the pages up so that people who happen to stumble upon it would have sth nice to read. but now it becomes a sort of aunt-beky column for myself. why do we judge ourselves based on ppl's judgements? and sometimes sadly we base our friendships on peoples lies.

yes, its about being real. and its so hard to actually BE real, be who we are. i realise that by not caring about other's opinions and not storing what ppl write into our memory, we will be a whole lot happier..

phew
i think i spoiled my blog
oh-oh can someone teach me html?
i wanna link stuff but without runing my blog.
ahhh

i like adventure.
i really do.
and now im suffering from the lack of it
i managed to get fever so
now im all hot and not-hungry
but i suppose its normal
haha..anyway on to adventure
i had a really nice dream last nite
i woke up and found myself living by the beach.. and once i walked out
i could see the fluffy blue clouds hehe
the crashing waves and the over-powering heat from the sun burning
every grain of soft white sand i stepped on
ur probably wondering..ha? thats an adventure?
haha wait.. den i looked behind my house and saw my house on the edge of a cliff
with a stand-by bungee rope:) so i bungeed every morning
haha sounds ridiculous?
wait till u hear this.. den i saw my friend, names not mentioned hehe
and she was bungeeing up and down too on the opposite side of the cliff
den we were laughing as we jumped up and down
haha den we crashed into each other
ouch. talk abt waking up all painful hahah
so i woke up
haha just had to share it
cos it was so funny:p

i feel exhausted. haha like seriously. my cell kids they came over for dinner last night..and some stayed over. it really was quite fun. we had good pre-dinner fun(not sure about the icky-poo ketchup) and dinner was served after that. by which becos of the supposedly good pre-dinner fun, they all were halfway puking and had not much of an appetite for my curry! the one i helped cook! but they liked my pasta. yay. haha. not bad

anyway for those wondering the pre-dinner fun was just dai-dee(big2), a card game played with losers drinking up a mixture of green ketchup(smone think camp2001), yakult, barbeque sauce, hersheys syrup, butterscotch, curry sauce and basically anything i could find in my fridge:) its no wonder they lost their appetite anyway, after that we watched a walk to remember.. ah! it was so sweet. ahah i know its mandy moore, but its really quite a good effort from a singer, others who just fail to make it(think britney spears)

yup soon after jimmy had to leave and wansze too..after watching the last few minutes of the unbeatables..becos of renita lah! she wanted to read the ending credits?! yeah..den it was me, rachel, sarah, zac, sk, josco and joshua who stayed over. we didnt sleep. we watched centre stage and parent trap till our heads nearly fell off befor deciding that tv wasnt a goood idea for 2am. so we headed up to my room to play..daidee! again. haha but it really did keep us partially awake. den we decided at abt 5 dat it was time to sleep..but thats when the fun began

put three girls, of which all are highly mischievious and giggly in one room and ask them to sleep. does not seem like a possibility babe. haha we decided to prank the boys in my brothers room(erm..sorry kor?)so it was as simple as this.

//one. knock on the door, when it opens, aim green ketchup and anyhow squeeze, den run back. ha! that was a success! heh we got it on sk..and josco.

//two. record a eerie tape with screams and pillows hitting the bed and a creepy voice saying 'wo de hai zi ah, ba wo de hai zi huan gei wo' (that was me) haha..ha! taht was a success too! sk(again) got creeped out and the boys screamed.

//three. hang a long-sleeved green shirt outside the door and knock. when the door opens, they will step out to find us.. wad they step on would be a sticky mess of the above mentioned. hehe ha! that did not work! neh. haha.

anyway very tired now but we slept two hours plus plus..and den we went to try to watch ghost ship but couldnt make it so watch clockstoppers.. its.. very teeny-boppy. haha yup. okay shall write later real tired..got work later. sigh.

someone//stefanie sun

Someone who sees like a child
gives like a saint
feels like an angel
never mind the broken wings
and speaks like a picture
cry like the rain
shine like the stars
as long as the fire remains

im about to make quite an important decision. something that ive been thinking about for the past few days, maybe months, even years. fear not, its not about being real and who i wanna be :) but its a real decision. cant tell what it is..let me settle it first. yeah but im excited. actually ive made the decision

anyway the past few days have been tough, gone thru the crying and all, thank God for eve who called me, and she made me laugh by relentlessly calling that person a bitch hehe, well.. its not just work but well, my closer frens will know..its supposed to be christmas! yet i dont exactly feel so much cheer, not as much as last year, presumably becos we ended o levels so that called for cheer. haha

its been a while since i put my thots down. but i know things will get better. i have to believe. God will see me thru. i have to practice what i preach to my kids. really dont want to set a bad example or sth. anyway the kids are coming over tmr for dinner and stayover at my house. great way to bond with them :) yup. and they make such adorable frens too.

oh yeah i actually managed to squeeze in movies hehe watched guru with priscilla it was so funny, and watched harry potter with sebast. it was so funny cos we kept asking questions as to what was happening. thats it im gonna get the third book. not that i have the first few. but i read the second one hehe. well..it is rather interesting. ok, enough blabber blahbloo for today, gotta go work :( yup and put in use some of that pent-up energy and un-touched exhilaration. ok my english a bit koyak. cant blame me. have been speaking !!!chinese!!! yeah i hear the moans. so haha.. hope today is better *crosses fingers* nahh should pray :)

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haha hmmmm... sounds like it. spot on baybee

worship today was amazing
it spoke powerfully to me
i was playing guitar for church
and was worried cos i wasnt prepared
but i decided to
just lead with my heart and by faith
and in the end i enjoyed worshipping
together with the congregation
it was like i wasnt playing
but i was just an instrument God used to
bring His people into His presence
it was amazing, awesome, fantabulous
just felt that Jessie(the worship leader) worshipped
with her heart and
God graced her with the confidence:)
yup. am so tired.
the next week is gonna be long and tiring
woohoo! bring it on!
nothings gonna stop me hehe

cold, thats what it feels like when ur hand leaves mine
warm, thats what my heart feels when we're one of a kind

change the way i am
something else
i just walk on and on
in blissful ignorance
but is it real?
do i hide like all the others
do i conceal who i really am?
or am i who i claim to be
super hero wannabe
part of just a fantasy
be real.
be who u are
be what u are inside
be you.

its strange how things can seem so perfect
owell. a facade thats what it is
but its alrite. i'm okay with it.
just got back from work.
it was okay considering i started at 3 in the morning
nutical i tell you
anyway my brain is super-shagged
haha. but shall try to complain less
its all part of the experience:)

i stand by the bed
and watch u as you drift to sleep
its gets me thinking
on how much u mean to me

i hold your hand
and plead for you to
dream the sweetest dream of me

you close your eyes
and at the same time
you shut your thoughts
out of your mind

but there i remain
just the two of us
as we walk down in our dreams
for dreams are made to be

*just you and me*

im in a rather pensive mood today
i was just lying in bed when i realised how lucky i am
ok, so the better word to use would be fortunate
or even better, blessed. i've been so blessed!
i used to place all my securities in friends, people and stuff in general
never in God.
i mean now i still do, but much less
and its a lesson learnt.
i really shouldnt think too much
hehe cos its funny how my thots smtimes translate into words
then..THATS not good
hahah cos i may end up offending people
see. im talking rubbish already
pls excuse me, its the morning:)
excuses excuses:p
haha..my brain is slow in the morning
aiyoh jess will say my brain is slow all the time
haha i have to learn to fight back! hehe
beks!! is bek! oh help. corny

to that friend who admires me for being so "all-out"
thanks
thanx for teaching me how to let go
thanx for the lessons uve taught me
they're invaluable
u know ill always be here for u
no matter what
i'll let go, but i'm always only a ring away
knowing that i have u as a fren
already alone is a comforting thought to me
and i'll love u always as a dear friend :)
moo :)

just realised that all my entries recently have been rather short
hmm was thinking how i should not get too long.
hahah after all im short. haha corny
anyway being real the past week or so has really
really helped me alot in understanding myself and others
i see new perspectives ive never seen before
and i realise i tend to think very deep
and thats not good nor bad
it can be applicable to many things
but my confidence is diminishing
somewhat being real has made me afraid
afraid of facing this world
alone.
afraid of losing my securities
but im not alone
I have God
and that alone is like more then a million people
how comforting is that?
ive never been so clear abt what i want
im gonna do what it takes to get me there
even if it means hard work
ppl know me as determined
let me prove them right
a fren of mine said that she admires dat
i place priority of friends so high
yet it reminded me that
i was looking at different priorities
i have to let go
no matter how difficult it may be
these ppl i love u know
its hard to let go
cant really accept it
ill try. beks will try.

today was such a tiring yet fun day haha
met renita in the morning den went to vj to see how max looked like haha
den went to work for couple of hours..meet my boss :S
hahaha den met ailing for tea.. had a good talk
den met daph for dinner at crystal jade.
wahahha so funny can
i made her go into a childrens shop and ask if they sold g-strings
the lady was like "huh.. g-jen?" hahah goodness
den went to this furniture shop and asked if they had
this brown leather chair in pink colour
was like damn bimbo
think the lady was quite amused
haha den went cold storage and acted les with daph
haha all the melons and all haha
so funny but a very exciting and fun nite
hehe to my muaks partner! i love u! :p

had a fulfilling day today again.
did a couple of sketches and managed to profile it
yup and wrote the actII songs. yay am on my way to completion
finally. haha miss gen. shes in obs..
havent talked to her for so long
yup..today has been such a strange day i tell u
spent time with my sister
den met sarah
den came home to rest haha
yup busy busy busy for the next few days :(

i walk out to the road
its covered full with lies and deceit
people walk on their heads
people wear a serene and calm smile
yet within their heads
anger and anguish speak strong
they try to run
they have been running for days
they have been running for months
and they run even further
this world is a taboo
everything remains a lie
no one stays real
what remains is the carcass of human morality
and nothing else
nothing.

today church..really good
worship was amazing and the Spirit was moving
den went for cell..
i was scared cos leading worship
thot i would screw it up
but i prayed and had faith and let God lead me
worship turned out really well
ppl were singing and worshipping raising their hands and all
its really amazing wad God can do :)

smtimes it doesnt pay to be fair
its like i try so hard in everything..put in my best
but it comes to nought
nothing.
i always hope and pray tat i could make that difference in smones life
but looks like ive failed
again. ive failed to.
ive not even be able to make an impact
and that quite sux i suppose
i try my best to be there for everyone
and i hate to feel so inadequate and useless and helpless
like thats it.. nothing else i can do.
as usual.
haii :( going to sleep unhappy tonite//:(

No gain, no pain! You are the Brown M&M You are beyond cautious and it seems like 'fun' is a foreign concept to you- live it up every now and then and you'll see just how much you are missing! ©2002 http://internetjunk.co.uk

yay!! i like brown..but prefer yellow :( erm actually..they all taste the same!! haha so it doesnt matter :)

You sad creature. You are such a Non-Geek. You have no interest in anything that is not of earthly existance-- You're so non-geek it's amazing you managed to switch on a computer to take this test! Spending so much time in the tanning bed or on the football feild will actually decrease your life span. Have a nice day! ©2002 http://internetjunk.co.uk

today i had lunch with ailing, pastor ian and sm guy called siew khim or sth
anyway he sounded like perry
hahah later rachel mok and jimmy came to join us
at the poly macs..
yeah it was rather interesting and after that went back to church
to practice piano
den went to cut hair. rachel followed
kept laughing at my hair
i was laughing too
eeeks so horrigible can
aiyoh can die ah but nvm
i will figure out how to salvage it lah
haha yupp k..dinner now..den early night
cos may have work tomorrow
hopefully can go church
hahah really hope to. :)

"its a damn cold night, im trying to figure out this life
won't you take my hand, take me somewhere new
i don't know who you are but i'm, i'm with you"

hello its rosy posy. haha my cheeks are still red from the sun
i think now im as dark as before
im in a happy mood.
and i have conjunctivitis
right eye cannot open
think its spreading to the left eye.
haha so strange
well..my fault lah wear my contacts yester morning
even when my eyes were already tired and strained
haha beks u lousy ah still the same
im not going to be so dumb next time haha
well goin to see eye doctor and
meet pastor an abt christmas
den..cut hair!! yeah yay!! :p

was in alot of trouble last nite
some bothered, some didnt
and it really was bad cos i never felt so helpless and inadequate
i thot ppl who knew that feeling would do.. aiyah nvm im being petty and crazy
anyway i prayed and it took faith and surrendering all problems to God to settle it
i mean i had to draw clothes from the artistes wardrobe but i couldnt print the 5page list so
i intended to print from office but printer spoil. si liao
so in the end i got scolded. and rattled at.. my 3rd day of work
sia lah like i know everything
but yeah i really felt like giving up and going home
den i would be exactly what i imagined myself to be
a sloth who gave up easily. someone who could never handle responsibility
and i wanna escape from that.
so i prayed and stayed. God said to be courageous and "no weapon formed against You shall prosper"
so in the end. i had fun.. i learnt many things and most imptantly..humility.
im tired..but i will persevere becos my God is so mighty, no problem is too big for Him.
we finished on time the 0700hrs to 1900hrs shift. 12hrs.
i was intending of going home to sleep
but i didnt. i met my colleague on the way
and she was going to new creation's bible study service
so i went too and by good golly it was great!
i enjoyed myself tremendously in God's presence
and the message had a profound impact on me.
i feel at ease knowing that my battles have already been won before i knew it existed
and thats a great truth to bank on, if anything.
tomorrow tomorrow i love you tomorrow :p
it will be a blessed day. better of cos.

just got back from work
start at 7am this morning
my eyes are red and sleepy, my cheeks are red from the hot sun
which eveyrone thot that i had put blusher to work
haha but no i dint
people who know me knows that i turn naturally red in the sun
still am a little red.
tired. met alot of stars today
they are surprisingly humble
could clique quite well with the director
he kept insisting i was13. haha sheesh
well..today was busy and tiring
nothing left to be said i suppose

ok God, its all up to You.
im gonna trust You 100%
im gonna try. im gonna show them i can
and den i dont back off easily
give me strength.. i need it.
give me courage, im prob gonna need it too
and give me support, whoever it may be :)

once u experience the cool, gentle breeze
it makes u feel warmth and wonder inside
like a drop of honey, or jus a little tease
its like coming to u with arms open wide

it brushes past ur ears in adoration
runs thru ur soul like a mysterious train
capturing ur heart with just simple patience
the freedom of ur troubles, ur freed from pain

hard to conceptualise within just a breadth of a minute
but when u glance side to side it all just seems simple
its likes falling beyond, even further into a bottomless pit
the grace and understanding far higher den a steeple

a steeple of grace, love and passion
by which no ordinary heart can contain
only peace and strength keeps one going on
to free oneself from this laughing game

[03 Sep 2002|12:34am]
Favour
By: beks
Music by: beks

You gave the moon its shining glory

Set the stars in their place

Gave nature its awesome beauty

Showing favour upon every face


You gave life that set us free

For this we shout Your praises

For You are ever-living to me

We lift You high above all else


Its You, who set us free

Let us now, raise our hands to adore You..

CHORUS

Thank You Lord for Your favour on me

Thank You for Your grace which sets me free

No one else has such awesome power

To give love like You so freely give

To me

I'm grateful to You my King

For showing favour on me




Bridge

You are awesome and splendid

Eternally Faithful

Lord, there's no one like You

just came back from church
had lunch with ailing, she told me that we all should be more real.
think that is true. i actually write this journal in a more realistic manner
as in most of it is what i feel, what i think and what i am
guess whats missing is the anger part.
dont really want that to show anyone u know.
i wanted to cut my hair but wil do that on sat.
yeah and i kinda realise that being who i am scares me
cos the human mind is such that it is so complex and intricate
so sometimes it veers to the goody-two-shoes side, sometimes the serious, moody depressive ones
mostly its just that bitch of a satan who tries to direct our focus by inviting distractions into our lives
bloody bugger lah satan but heck him, he pales far in comparison to God
he isnt even worth comparison
damn loser.
anyway im sort of digressing
haha. i hope to be more real
to let ppl know the real me and to show people who i really am
it may not be some saint or someone who reads the bible everyday
but thats me
what u gonna do about it? :p

hahah i wont complain :)
neh but i met christopher lee, phyllis quek, and the whole cast of some new show haha
it was hilarious
and really quite interesting. the on the job stuff however sucks biggie
anyway dint eat the whole day! dats what i like abt the job!!
can lose weight!!! :p hahah im so out of point
haha was reading my scripts all in chinese
after awhile they all seem to be repearing. den i realise oh.. i never flip the page!
dooong
hahah den cos my chinese is so bad when
my colleague said "lan zhang"(blue form), i thot she was introducing me to the cameraman
so i said "ni hao"(hello) hahah and den she kept saying "lan zhang" again so i kept saying hi
den she said "bloo form lah" den i felt like a complete doofus hahah
haha so my chinese sucks. period
haha who cares..gotta deal with it..
real tired..going to meet ailing later :)

had a fruitful day..
spent almost two hours sketching my stage and set
haha quite happy with it looks rather decent
hmm did other sketchings too of costumes and props
den completed three music scripts for the songs
quite interesting hehe well..den did some satII prep
lunch was great, met friends and we went ballistic haha
rather hilarious
oh bought a pink and orange velvet stool and purple and red cushions hehe
gosh i know..now my room looks bright
yup gonna have dinner with brother and mum soon
brother can drive already haha gonna make him drive me around :)
no lah so bad. okies time to say byebye really tired :p
dinnertime!

its deepavali or sth today
but ive got a painfully disturbing headache
ahhh beky is frustrated with it
but its not gonna stop me from being cheery and happy :)
hahah cos thats what i am..cheesy and cheery haha
lalalala okies plan-check.
going to ikea with mother..choose furniture! pink* yes daph? haha
den going to meet my ex-rg sch frens..miss dem lots!
erm den going fer dinner with family..
gotta prepare for work.. aiyoh
all chinese speaking can die ah
and hokkien too. i dont even know one word
chinese can lah but hokkien? i only kno "seee mi" and i dont even
know if that is hokkien bwahahahha
yeah sleepyfied today so sleepy
maybe its just my degenarating brain haha
oh...gen..i was playing dis game yesterday and it had this question
"do u have a hero or heroine in your life?" haha some family game
den i just stared at dem and dint kno how to answer
when i said u.. haha u should have seen their faces
what am i supposed to say?! hahha

"love lifts us up where we belongwhere eagles fly, on a mountain high"

just read daph's blog so funny :p
haha..laughed till my head fell off..
anyway not feeling too happy now
cos kinda angry with someone
aiyoh its like taking someone for granted
kinda feels like ehh ehh i dunno..
ohwells

substitutes. that was what i was doing this morning.
i dint wanto see someone in church today but well she came by and sat next to me
talked a little, but as usual it kinda got abruptly ended so i just walked away
dont think she means it lah but dont care cos too tired to.
went out with daph and eve today instead of going fer cell.
oh wait! did i mention.. i finally met jolin today haha talked to her so funny and interesting
think winst was just a bit shocked. haha
anyway yeh the three of us, me daph and sleepycow
we went to hv..sat and watched eve eat her meee pok cos the poor girl was starving
hahah den we went to look at earrings and wacky stuff
den went party with us or sth, daph bought elmo balloon..darn cute man haha
den we tried on wigs..haha
went to holland shopping centre after looking at some facial stuff(which i dont need hehe) at watsons
hahah so funny cos we went up and i took a zee bag for eve hahah and made her go ask an INDIAN BARBER(!!!) how much a haircut was! stupid gurl go and say "for kids" aiyoh. smack her ah hahha
anyway its "kids 8, secondary 9, adults 10" hahas hilarious..
den after that went cold storage. hahha did weight training with turkeys and eeeks the chestnut stuffing looks
really reallly gross can..hahah den we saw a bag of sausages opened up already
i accidently broke one into two hahah funny
den got very interested in the "two exciting flavours" by weider energy so open and try. sux big time haha
hahah so sleepy. den after that went back to church..ikea tomorrow so today dint go haha
beks is hyper

today was my sats..really good i suppose..its finally over
i wouldnt do extremely well in it
but i hope good enough to go harvard
i realise how much i wanna do law.
but anyway..this change of plans is kinda temporary
dunno myself yet
but all i know now is that
i will follow God's path for me
am really tired now..time to do what most cows..especially sleepycow do.
heheh sleep! :)

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muffin and beky rules hahaha
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