just came back from church
had lunch with ailing, she told me that we all should be more real.
think that is true. i actually write this journal in a more realistic manner
as in most of it is what i feel, what i think and what i am
guess whats missing is the anger part.
dont really want that to show anyone u know.
i wanted to cut my hair but wil do that on sat.
yeah and i kinda realise that being who i am scares me
cos the human mind is such that it is so complex and intricate
so sometimes it veers to the goody-two-shoes side, sometimes the serious, moody depressive ones
mostly its just that bitch of a satan who tries to direct our focus by inviting distractions into our lives
bloody bugger lah satan but heck him, he pales far in comparison to God
he isnt even worth comparison
damn loser.
anyway im sort of digressing
haha. i hope to be more real
to let ppl know the real me and to show people who i really am
it may not be some saint or someone who reads the bible everyday
but thats me
what u gonna do about it? :p