gen makes blogging sound so sinful. like its what people use to put together a show or sth. makes it sound so direct.i don't exactly fall into just one category, but neither do i fall into the "hey my life's hip and happening or whatever"category. the reason why i started blogging was purely out of boredom. it became a sharing thing, on how my day was or how my day will be..or yes about what a bitch life is about.

but as much as the whole world is gonna perceive u from what they read..it becomes a very good tool in promoting religion and one's beliefs. do you know how much what u write can inspire ppl? how much u say can mean alot to just one person. it also acts as a mediator to things that just cannot be solved face to face. im not saying that whatever i have written has been all-inspiring..but there's gonna be one day where i hope this becomes a testimony of God's great wonders in my life, and that day is just gonna be beautiful, becos nothing brings more joy den honouring God

so whats this about putting up a facade? the paranoia of blogging? why does being real scare others? it scares me too sometimes becos we avail our vulnerability to others disposal and we leave ourselves wide open and exposed. thats when the real magic happens. and thats when God's love comes the most powerfully. some ppl blog just to sound interesting and funny but when u read yer first few blogs or previous entries, u re-live those times and the blog sorts of stores yer memories for u. some prefer to write it in someplace more personal..a diary or what..but some ppl want to share their idealistic somewhat personal thots with others. it aint wrong u know. becos a blog can be so real. it can help u understand ppl and know their true problems.

some people have just gotta stop blogging just for the sake of blogging. i was one of them, i just did it to fill the pages up so that people who happen to stumble upon it would have sth nice to read. but now it becomes a sort of aunt-beky column for myself. why do we judge ourselves based on ppl's judgements? and sometimes sadly we base our friendships on peoples lies.

yes, its about being real. and its so hard to actually BE real, be who we are. i realise that by not caring about other's opinions and not storing what ppl write into our memory, we will be a whole lot happier..