the morning blues
i got forced out of bed this morning. and many know that i absolutely hate that. i guess it wasnt anybodys fault that i had to wake up, but it wasnt pre-arranged so i didnt know what i was waking up for till it was all explained later. but i got up, hopping mad and irritated at the little things around me and then i started playing some angry music, which made it worst and then i felt so lost. its like when one is riding on waves of happy emotions and then to suddenly have it all crashing down again due to the slightest thing, its gratifying. i wasnt depressed nor was i pessimistic, but i didnt feel too good. yet with a soft sigh and what has to be the most silent prayer ive ever said, i wished it all away. and now in place, tho it may not be bubbling enthusiasm, the angers gone. sometimes its at out most trying times that God works the most powerfully.

even tho the above may not be anything fantastic or big or whatever, its a small testimony testifying the multitudes of God's love. of how in simple situations like the above, he can turn it around and make it seem -- small. i received a letter from my bro this morning and initially i felt really angry at what he had written, but then i decided that i had to reply it in a calm way. anyway dont think my bro reads this blog, so lets keep it that way :)