these two days have been a whirlwind of mixed emotions. was just joking with a friend on how i should write a cheemalogy song and post it up..or settle for a crappy song with hardly any meaning in its lyrics. i'll settle for none. the kids came over last nite.. sk, josco, zac, rachel, chloe and my baby! (thats sarah by the way but i think i should stop sounding les NOW!) haha..anyway then zac, sarah, chloe and rachel stayed over and it was so funny just acting lesbian the whole nite! it was really funny and i enjoyed myself alot with the kids. we were so stoned this morning and they left abt 12 where after that i went for brunch and grocery shopping with my family. ha! today was a day where i thought alot surprisingly.

anyhow went down to church at around 5.. with my brother who woke up late! haha we prayed and even tho worship was short and different, i really could relate to it and i just felt a sense of release throughout the praying and worshipping. we sang this song with the lyrics
"Your love is better then life, i know it well. and i've found all that i need in You"
it was then did i realise the true capacity of God's love for us. we are so unworthy, so unworthy to stand before Him at His throne, yet He has pulled us back from the jaws of death to save our condemned lives. and i just have to be thankful. well it was really good to experience God at such a time. refreshed me for just a moment.

went to holland v with clement, jimmy, lydia, khenwei and my brother for dinner. spent time talking to jimmy. he helped me clear some thoughts about certain things and im thankful for friends like him. anyway then went back home by bus..and just spent the time on the bus, the time walking back from the bus stop reflecting. reflecting on how lucky i am to be God's child. and it was then did i feel such love being poured right into my heart and i just smiled.