maybe i expect too much

but its getting increasingly unsatisfying to always take the first step and humble myself, only to have it thrown back into my face. and again its frustrating to keep on giving and then i lose at the receiving end. its realllly frustrating. and den i cant believe i actually am bothered about silly nonsensical rumours that are so dam irritating.

there's nothing between us, so STOP asking! thankyou very much!

and then when i painstakingly take effort to type individual mails to different people and ask for their replies, they dont, even though its important! frustrating. (and no its not you gen :) ) but i get so frustrated cos i wonder WHY THE HELL i even bother in the first place. helllllo isnt it basic courtesy to reply mails sent to u??

ahhhh wtf frustrated. go awayyy