the walls come tumbling down

listening to : only time by enya
current mood : shitty but trying to be optimistic

first of all, its my mum's birthday!!! so happy birthday mum, i appreciate you more then you know it. :) just came up from singing her a birthday song. it always makes me glow whenever i see her smile happily! it makes the ideals of a happy family so much more real. and i really wanted to make her happy. i think of the disappointment the past ten years or so she has suffered when she works so hard yet her daughter[me] forgets her birthday till the night of the dinner itself. sigh, i havent been a good enough daughter even after so much she has done for me, yet i repay her with all my tantrums and angstypangsty moods. sigh, going to try harder. sometimes i really take for granted my family and how much they love me. arghy. shall not dwell on it, will work on it.

today was................... busy. but painfully tiring. woke up darn early, went thru the day sick and tired. fever escalated, den subsided. it was tiresome. and i kept breaking into cold sweat and felt dizzy the entire day. dammit. been taking more vitamins already. anyway feeling terrible now but trying to feel better. the same line hurts.

to see someone you love so much love somebody else, arghh its painful i swear.

goodnight.

spp: i.w.i.c.t.u.h.i.f.b.t.c.c.pp.c.a.i.l.u! :) be strong dear