struggling with our pride

we all have our weaknesses and personal defects and above all the things we entertain in our daily lives, pride is the one solid thing that i struggle with the most. i already find it hard to share about this as it subjects me to people's judgements and whimsical fancies. people judge and the rather deviating thing about it all is that even tho i try hell hard not to let it affect me, i let people's opinions dictate the way i live my life. what people say, what people think about me; i want to be free from people's scrutiny, free from their judgement and perceiving eyes. when i find that freedom, freedom in Christ, i'll let you know.

we often let people decide for us what to wear, how to look, basically in general our appearance. we let people determine what kind of clothes suit our so-called image, we let people tell us what brand of shoes looks good on us..etc. basically we are letting them make choices for us, and letting them rule our lives with their fashion arbitration. then again, its human nature isnt it? who doesnt want to look their best for photos etc. who doesnt want to look just..pretty? we fashion ourselves based on their soul-stirring remarks and we become someone they want us or imagine us to be. maybe its not all that serious.. but we sure are becoming a walking superficiality. and very soon, even we ourselves would find it hard to be that someone we keep living our standards up to.

dont know what prompted me to write such an argumentative blog. it just seems that nowadays people are becoming less and less of what they are supposed to be, and in doing so they are becoming less and less of themselves. its sad huh? but thats the world for you, cynical, superficial and filled with all-rounded goodness