power vocals
oh what an amazing day! it was long..really long. but actually very interesting and fun! fun would actually be an understatement:) i had tuition first, by gracie. thanks gracie. :) and den i went for an audition sounding like the ghost of christmas past! but still it went quite ok! phew. then i went to meet ailing and daph in church for some bible study thing..pity i could only stay for a short while, den had to rush off to meet sillyboy bertrand! haha taught him a bit of guitar heh and den we talked..and mostly just relaxed by the kallang river! it was so beautiful. it was really quiet, precisely why it added to the whole serenity of it all. very relaxing.

den i came home first cos i had no money and bert sent me back in a cab..he paid! so nice :) den i rushed to town for dinner with winzee..good too! we talked alot..havent been talking. today seems like a reuniting day! haha den went for worship prac..den was singing outside my house with onz for an hour or so! power vocals man! she really can stretch her vocals to the max..and surprisingly my harmonies complimented her singing! yay! haha was so happy. havent been so high for awhile. tmrw meeting mooky and browncow. yikes. havent seen both for super long!

anyway i realise i havent written much thought-provoking stuff recently. and right now, if u havent noticed, im a in a mood to write, of cos i will subconsciously try to amaze u all with my supposedly good english, but i would just end up talking rubbish..so nevermind. haha

anyway i was just reading some daily bread just now and the topic was "who we are in Christ" I realise that over the past few months i have been putting so much emphasis on being "real" and all, and being who u really are. but i guess, ultimately, it is impossible! no one can be real..all the time! even i. i paint a mask every morning to school, remove it, den paint another one when i go to church or some other place. hard as i may try to deny my superficiality, it is subconsciously present in all of us. so whats this all about? just being who we are in Christ. just being a testimony to others, being real in God's eyes. becos how u behave, what u are is what God truly sees? even if we're a criminal sitting in jail for repeated offences, God looks at our heart and who we really are in Him! whether our hearts are set right for Him. i really wanto reach a point where one day, it doesnt matter how ppl judge me, it doesnt matter what ppl say about me.. and all that matters is the judgement perceived in God's eyes. that is so difficult u know? cos we after all are..human beings! and we blame the "nature" of human beings for shaping the way we are now.. like how we let say.. lying, be a habit.. "oh its just one lie.. big deal" it leads on. and only if we allow it to become part of our lives. God did not give us sin and we must do our very best to be pleasing in God's eyes, which would be hell difficult. but let us all try for a start? try not swearing that much.. try putting a limit on how much u spend, try not telling ur little white lies too much.. just curb a little. im trying! its hard, but.. the results are..amazing!:)

see? ive babbled on and on without realising it. i dont really know what im talking about..my points are sorta all over the place. crap. haha. hopefully ppl reading this will gain new insights from this. yeah yeah.. haha ya right! uh ok, nvm..hehe gonna sleep. beky is sleepy :)