blehx.. im sick! i've got fever, cough, flu..the works! and ive got this horrible headache tat refuses to go away..and it keeps punding away at my small..very un-used brain. heh. but even tho i'm physically tired, i feel pretty alive and hyper. ok so i'm not hyper in the woohoo-jumps-around kind of hyper..but i'm happy. yeah been falling sick often these days..last time i was like THIS kinda sick was just before camp last year! which was abt a month ago! sigh should really try to stay healthy like maybe exercise or drink a gazillion cups of water.

yeah so today will be one of my sit-down-and-study days..which is most unlikely to happen cos i have this feeling i will be falling asleep soon. haha.i've got one recording i must complete by tomorrow but the best thing about it is that i sound like kenny-rogers-gone bad. haha so how to sing?? :p maybe i should just play the music then add in the vocals like tomorrow when i think my voice would be better. heh so today will be my working day. heh..get some work done for once.

so anyway im still happy..very cheeky too.. i keep being the joker. haha neh neh neh..man my head is hot. ouch heheheh.. beks is going maddy-mad-mad haha.. ok but on a more serious note, i was just wondering..why do people get depressed? and how come they can stay depressed for as long as i was..or maybe..even longer? mainly its becos the things of the world just drags us all down..dumping its heavy burdens upon our shoulders. and also..subconsciously..we tend to be working towards people's expectations rather den our own..so yeah. for a short while i was scared to blog all these thoughts for fear of judgement. but den i realise that i should just write whatever i want..anyway not like the whole world is gonna read it.

so i was just thinking of what it truly takes to be happy. to feel the abundant joy of God in our hearts? to feel loved by God and that it is only by His grace that our mere existance should actually..exist? we fail to notice that. we are always asking/seeking/wanting things from God..we pray everyday asking for this asking for that.. but how often do we just take awhile to thank Him? and to tell Him that u truly appreciate His gift of grace to you. I took a step back yesterday from where i was in church and instead of sending my requests to Him during worship.. i decided to just yeah u know..praise Him and thank Him. we should all do that really. hehe. anyway thats whats truly made me happy..knowing that if everything else fails me..He never would.

he's in army :(