realisations
1. too dependent on the people i love
2. easily disappointed
3. stressed
4. tonnes of work awaits me.

anyway about point no.1, i really should curb my dependency on them. cos it mite just hinder their paths or stumble them. and i really should be depending wholy on God. badbadbad me. im already feeling quite terrible. doesnt help that i have a skyrocketing temperature and each time i close my eyes, they burn. i need water i think.

is there someone you love, or loving them so, but taking them all for granted. you may lose them one day, someone takes them away, and they dont hear the words you long to say

from a bread song. so to the people i love.. i love you :)