Master your emotions and yourself. Reliance is weakness
i took this from locke's blog... how true. i must get a grip on myself. get a grip beks!!!!! hang in there, dont break, dont fall, dont let yourself down. surely you can be stronger den this?

i can be strong.

i must be strong.

i must conceal my pain with pride, with arrogance and with anything i can muster to hide my brokenness. that way it seems to make things so much easier, so much less complicated.

build up my defences, take no offences.

harden my heart, i'll rather be numb.

come on beks, fight the good fight!!!