there's absolutely NOTHING to make me smile.
you think i dont want to be happier? or to smile more? or wave happily at everyone i see? i do! when i meet friends or when im out, im cheery beks, i smile, i wave and i laugh. i want to be happy. but inside of me everythings just eating me up and i just feel so frustrated. u think i dont want to feel JOY? or to laugh and actually mean it? or smile because i really feel like smiling cos the worlds so perfect?
HELL YEAH I WOULD LOVE TO.
theres just a damn lot of frustration in me. and i cant seem to find anything.