im stuck between feeling not-so-good and feeling like fuck.

sorry for the language here but i'l just delete it tmr or sth. inexcusable? owell. i cant live up to everyones expectations rite? i cant be perfect. its like i try my darnest and i put in the most effort but the results always disappoint. ill be so hyped abt sth and ill go wherever with my moron-like optimism and the next simplest thing can reverse my mood. its amazing isnt it?

whats the point in trying so hard, trying to live up to expectations and trying to be someone i'm not cut out to be? whats the whole dam point in trying??

im tired. again. faith seems to be the only thing thats sustaining me.