i was just thinking, u know one of those times where u happen to be sitting in front of ur com, logged on to the blogger server and listening to a sappy song, and suddenly u just feel like expressing urself, and ur thoughts just spill endlessly into pages and pages of memories? this is THAT time. i'm feeling so thoughtful now, i mean in a thinking mood la..and im thinking of him.

A picture just fills my mind, where we are strolling on a beach, holding hands and whispering sweet nothings to each other and leaving our set of footprints on the sand. den the picture changes to one where we are praying together and we have that same enduring passion for God, where we are fervently seeking Him and believing in His promises. these are all just fragments of my dreams, a far path from reality. We are just not meant to be, we are just meant to love each other as friends, as soulmates and thats all. no one knows how cracking it is to feel so near yet so far. but im not particularly upset now. i allowed him to distract me and it interfered with my worship to God, it allowed me to be so torn and confused, but u see, i cant tell him all these becos my already broken heart would be left in tinier bits and pieces.

"On the day that u were born, the angels got together and decided to create a dream come true, so they sprinkled moondust in ur hair of gold and starlight in ur eyes of blue"

i have to let go
its time to let u go
its time to say our goodbyes
our tears and our hearts
will still be held captive
by the power of friendship
im leaving u to urself
with whatever choice u make
i just want u to be happy
adieu to the man behind the curtain in red :)